YanBo_Step Towards My Dreams

After a snow storm in the winter in South China, followed by violent criminals in Tibet province, and just when the Torch Replay become peaceful, a 7.8 earthquake happened in SiChuan Province + the worldwide economics going down and China's rely on the US dollar + a lot need to take care of about the Olympic... It seems not a soft year for China... May you recover and get through everything my motherland.

 

It's so great to have friends around and do a lot of things together!

 

Very accidentaly, I knew on the 5th May 20.00 that there would be a Celine Dion concert on the 6th May 20.40. Luckily, I got a ticket and went to see her show! I think she is a very great singer! Am still excited.  

 

It was a lovely day yesterday. Though I was really tired, I coundn't resist the very cherishable sunny day! I went to Hyde Park in London. After wandering a little while, I sat down at the deckchair face to the lake in the sunshine for several hours. At the first, I felt lonly in the crowd untill very late, an very old lady sat down beside me with a peaceful smile. I looked around, everyone seems enjoying the sun shine, enjoying the life a lot, even the dogs. And, look at myself, I have nothing to feel shame about. It is not a competition, I shouldn't be that obsessive to all the unhappy things. Even if it is, it may not be a horrible thing to loose a man who cannot see and cherish my value. I should finally understand that if it is not mine, then don't try hard to chase it. If it goes, then let it go. In the classic story, Jane said "Though I am ugly and not affluent, I still deserve the right to love and to be loved". I should think in the same way!

Are we carrying a cross now? I feel sad, stressed but do not want to give up... I feel that you may feel the same...

Smiles become hard and conversations are no longer relax. It blocks us. I know that I have to forgive you unconditionally if I don't want to give up. It hurts much more than you can imagine. It takes a lot energy to love and to be giving. I'm now, like a scared hedgehog, twisted in a corner. Tears drop secrectly and silently. Days become too long to cope with depression. Nights become too dark for the heart looking for hope. I don't know what is right and where I can go to...